I'm really speaking my mind here. But I feel much much safer and at ease when I am not living with any of the men in my life. And all the women I talked to, either directly agree or hint to that way. I just can't fight anymore with the illogical rage and abusive nature (though I'm luckier than many other women that they are not beating me up, but the control, the mocking, the manipulation, the hate is there. And the culture just don't leave us a way to live separately, but peacefully, to live and let live) of the men I face in my life.